Monday 11th March

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GOIN’ HOME:
 
“Hey Lar, it’s Trev”
That familiar northern lilt, a man of groove & wisdoms, 
renowned for his drumming & back step conversation. We’d sat 
in his yard in summer, me listening,him sharing experience 
for free, me smiling, leaving lighter than the arriving, 
burned by the sun. Now, still wrapped in winter padding 
I was standing in the rain with a cell phone facsimile 
of his voice. I’ve danced to his grooves, lifted on the subtle 
nuance of his feel, a man who knows exactly when ‘it’s in the 
pocket’. In recent times I’ve come to know him as a great writer, 
as yet unpublished except for the emails he sends. What joy 
discovering one so gifted in the art of hitting stuff is even 
more natural at stringing words like pearls. 
Alvin’s gone man” – he said. It shocked me, shook me, perhaps
just as much to know I never heard it on the news or the weekly
radio obituary. I’d been watching him only a week ago, playing
‘Goin’ Home’ at that festival of festivals, the gathering of the 
free love tribes that signalled the end of the beautiful times. 
Him with his famous red guitar, fingers in overdrive, delivering 
a familiar clipped 60’s tone I aspired to own but never did.
That familiar Ban the Bomb sticker that inspired me to personalise 
my Gibsons just like his. Alvin gone, but not forgotten.
“He was a great guitarist Lar, could play anything, we used to
have a three piece together, play for fun in the bars down at 
the beach. Me, Boz Burrel & Alvin – he was a brilliant guitarist”
I heard the sound of his voice & missed him.
“Keep writing Trev, write every day. You’re a great writer,
So many stories to tell”
 
(K)

Sunday 10th March

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THE RETURN OF WEATHER & HIS MINIONS:
 
Woke to the one sight that makes me go, “Oh no!” – Snow.
A light dusting by comparison to some, as parts of the world
mobilize daily on fat tyres & heavy insulation, but here, 
on the prairies of Essex we like to wake to the green stuff.
Throw in a little sunlight grow a few buds & watch me dance. 
Took a different tack today as the sun hesitated to show it’s 
face I covered myself in goose grease & ventured out. 
If you can’t beat it, turn it into art.
 
(K)

Saturday 9th March

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BIRDSONG & RADIO: 
 
Birdsong underscores the early mist, I smile, a gift.
Two radios for the mood of an early head, click, listen
to the tone, the poetry of the morning news & choose. 
Most days 5Live is my station of choice, the upbeat 
rhythm of the voice, informed, personal, like street 
voice rhythms. I like the hiss of the AM wrapped around
them, reminding me of good times in the car with Dad.
The FM sounds like a funeral, bad news obsession, 
direct injection into the rhythm of a nation, it makes 
me afraid. I listen to the FM for a beat, turn it off 
till later when the groove is inviting, turn on the AM 
& feel the spirit rise.
 
(K)

Friday 8th March

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BAGS OF FUN: 
 
Fog in field, not in head, up late mixing in studio,
eyeballs sandpapered, thin wire pulled through bone
as I wake into a soft focus world. Trees drip with 
tiny slapping sounds, shedding condensed mist.
I pul a bin on wheels up a dirt track & smile.
Feet still taking me on a fantastic journey.
 
(K)

Wednesday 6th March

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SUNSHINE KICKDRUM:
 
The sun shone on the kickdrum & the kickdrum dealt the vibe.
The vibe fuelled the rhythm & faces smiled. The air smelt of 
summer dust & promises as I drove with the window down, an 
elbow pointing south, driving home. A good day, a gathering,
re-united in groove. 
 
(K)

Tuesday 5th March

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FOUR TO THE FLOOR:
 
Fat contrails converge above a demi-moon, dissipated on the wind
in a clear blue sky. Below, the earth is a caramel crust dusted 
in frost, inviting me to crunch it. Three boys meet to remember, 
following on from their last happy union in Madrid. Riots gave
way to artworks, Goya to back street coffees, breathing the breath
of the framing woman as drunk men taunted a simple boy, a robot 
dancer craving company, trying to keep them laughing in desperation.
Three boys drop the kick drum on a sunny day in Essex, turing dark
into light.
 
Listening to “TBC” by Amatorski on Crammed Discs for a gentle
way in. 
 
(K)

Monday 4th March

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ON LEAVING PECHAM RYE:
Didn’t have to adopt the crazy-eye last night, 3 hours sleep
in two days & it was back for real as I walked fast lugging
heavy bag to the station. The shadow kid in the hood who
lurched towards me mumbled “Sensi?” swerving fast as he
caught my expression. Slip the ticket out the pocket, slide it
into the slot & ride – one continuos motion. Just enough time
for photographic evidence of the magic train swinging low to
carry me home – who knows when I’ll pass this way again.
Everyone on the platform with me may have seen ‘Blackfriars’
on the front of it, but I saw ‘Essex’. The hoods in the carriage
kept their heads down, nodding with the rhythm of the rocking.
To my tired eye’s the carriage lights were as relentless
as distress flares, hurting my eyes. I countered with camera
in black & white – everything went film noir & I was back in
control, relaxing.
At the Elephant the mall smelled of cleaning products, printer ink
& perfume – Girls giggled, stumbling arm-in-arm. I didn’t make
the same mistake as last time, didn’t take the wrong turn,
staying clear of the alleys, following signs to the tube.
On the pavement outside I got a double barrel of meths rising
from a tiny lake, a smashed bottle. The meths & the perfume & fumes
from the busses parked outside reassured me I was headed in the right
direction. Women in lingerie smiled down at me from Illuminated
billboards as I slipped my ticket in & slid between the barricades –
“Don’t you want to stay with me?”.
The boys in sweats coming from dance studios talked like music
in animated tongues, their sinuous limbs swerving pools of finely
desiccated sick with ease. I breathed the dust of millions & began
to smile, the lights growing softer as the distance to Essex
shortened.
Today, in sunshine I’m listening to ‘ABC’ by Bly de Blyant,
another new release from the excellent Hubro label
(K)

Sunday 3rd March

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SLEEPLESS:
Awake all night in Peckham, longing for big Essex skies.
I watch Karlheinz Stockhausen documentaries, manipulating the
volume, mixing street sounds. It keeps me awake, long enough to
ok edits & mixes happening across the room. The body longs to
curl up in comfort, but the schedule demands it remain awake to
accompany the head. The mind plays games to simulate adrenaline,
the arms hang limp & ache. Stockhausen hisses & honks, slipping
radio dials across stations, fragments of random conversation,
morse code, frequency harmonics – the ears blur in sympathy with
the symphony of the eyes, the thighs tingle silently inside the
jeans.
The nice lady smiled as she showed me my sunlit room, that was
yesterday, now it’s dull, dirty orange after midnight in the glow
of designer street lamps, bill paid & empty. In the room of edits
& mixes the Kettle remains the constant, coffee on maximum rotation,
whistle hissing, underscoring Stockhausen’s oscillations.
The walls are covered in words describing scenes from a journey
I’ve taken on days away from rehearsals in sodden shoes trudging
through mud beneath embedded in a low woollen hat to shelter from
a freezing wind.
Stockhausen is still lecturing as I snap back into consciousness
about the state of ‘not thinking’ & my skin has begun to itch,
the texts & emails stopped hours ago, everyone I know has gone to bed.
(K)

Saturday 2nd March

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SOUTH OF THE RIVER:
 
Ride the train, loaded with words, still buzzing from 
a week of music & laughter with the band. Yesterday 
we filmed & multi-tracked the rehearsal late into 
the evening, something to show you in time. Everyone 
sad to be leaving, loading cars, tail lights disappear 
into the night. But this is only part of the journey, 
the next is yet to come, the exciting bit with you.
 
Now I’m riding the train back to Peckham, recording words,
a bag full of scripts, a camera, note book, something to 
scratch marks on paper for the gallery growing in my head.
It’s going to be another long & fruitful night, jamming 
South London rhythms with brother Kieran.
 
(K)